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let's talk about us.
04:29
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makeshift ghost sends another text message
this one says, "maybe i could be your inhaler"
to which i replied, "death to white light, long live yellow light"
and i smoked until i was out of breath
no fresh air ever again (never again that's it)
i am incapable of taking care of myself or being happy
i am in love with everyone and terrified of everything
if there is a reason for living i'm definitely blowing it
night shift ghost sends another karaoke thing
says, "baby we could be parallel lines
moving in the same direction forever without ever meeting"
to which i replied, "that sounds fine, when do we start?"
i am incapable of taking care of myself or being happy
i am in love with everyone and terrified of everything
if there is a reason for living i'm probably already blowing it
after all, i'm not really trying to do any better, i'm just trying to make it look i am
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2. |
police chief's niece.
03:56
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it doesn't matter how you get the money
just get it to me as soon as you can
two hundred fifty thousand dollars
and everything goes according to plan
i've got the police chief's niece
and i wouldn't hurt a hair on her head
but i guess i cant say the same
for the people that i work with
my two best friends frequent AA
and i brought a water bottle
filled with rum to work today
but it's okay because i'm not the one with the problem, man
i don't know how to break this to you
but you were never drunk in that dream
though I'm slowly starting to learn that
dreaming is just lying to yourself in your sleep
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3. |
this is the last time.
06:39
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if comedy is tragedy plus time, then one day
this will be the funniest thing i have ever seen
bullet points that are just rolled up dollar bills
enthralled, super fun, enrolled in soft pay
i'll take it all
i'll take it all, ok
if it feels good, do it
if it doesn't feel good,
you're probably gonna do it anyway
because by now we've all learned that
bad feelings are the only ones that stay
swallow the leader, eat your food
there's not that big of a difference between
dinner theater and spending the night
screaming in your dining room
i'll take it all
i'll take it all, ok
leaning up against the coast
fairly soft
you have everything
but you still lost
this is the last time
it's enough when it's enough
but it never is
addicted not to substance but to sequence
this is the last time
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4. |
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could tell a stranger everything
except there's no such thing as everything
and strangers don't exist
you probably could say that i wanna get caught
so i would have to make a decision or stop
this is the last time every time
i saw god again when i was last in connecticut
they were drunk as hell talking about
how conscious thought was an accident
and how they're scared of everything that they've made
they said,
"you are just like the universe
constantly experiencing yourself
and everything else is just experiencing you.
everything that could be happening is happening, right?
and both nothing and everything are things that could be happening, so therefore both nothing and everything are constantly happening. and a hypothetical nothing would have to contain within itself the idea of nothing. a perfect void still contains within itself the idea of being a void. does that make any sense?"
so then i uhh took a sip from my whiskey and I looked god straight in the eyes and i said,
"this is the last time every time"
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5. |
the bruise on we.
04:11
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practice makes perfect and wanting makes worse
i can't even begin to explain the difference to you, man
the bruise on we doesn't mean anything, necessarily
we might just bruise easily, man
all of the world's most beautiful imagery
is associated with something that i can't relate to
I could have love literally projecting from my chest
and you would still slap the back of my neck
and say, "shut up and be more careful"
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6. |
bridge over what.
04:45
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(what a weird way we went swimming)
how I'm doing only matters in relation to you
self as other
other as object
the grass is always greener or some shit
like a bridge over what
our heart is a coke drip
or something forever
like a bridge over what
we have nothing in common
but the illusion of being together
(it's starting to feel like we're just brimming)
threw ourselves a birthday party
hoping everyone would show up
decided we didn't want to go
stayed home and got drunk
like a bridge over what
our heart is a coke drip
or something forever
like a bridge over what
we have nothing in common
but the illusion of being together
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7. |
happy heart broke you.
04:14
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it's right above you in every city
isn't it crazy that you can start including
someone else into
your own concept of what living means?
happy heartbroke you
i'm gonna love you until i'm late for work
and then i'm gonna love myself
i cant speak in absolutes
i guess i'm sorry
but anything less than abstract is boring
i'm gonna love you until i'm late for work
and then i'm gonna love myself
happy heart broke you
or you and i
but just kind of
i'm gonna love you until i'm late for work
and then i'm gonna love myself
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8. |
let's take medicine.
04:39
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i hope that hell exists for donald trump
and the babysitter that made me touch his dick
but not for anyone i love
not my family, not my grandparents
you are what you are,
what you do when you're alone
cocaine, jerking off, staring at your phone
it's unsettling
let's take medicine
i've been meaning to call my cousin
and ask when it was she knew she needed help
let's take medicine
until this goes away
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it took me twenty five years to learn to accept my body
what other awful shit will i accept by the time i'm fifty?
if i could even bear to live with myself for that long
it's probably too early to start drinking
if at this time, on any other day,
you're usually not even awake yet
it's whatever, man
i get it
you've made it this far
i get it
it's whatever, man
i get it
you've made it this far
this is the only way to live
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